I'm currently on a plane from Key West to Atlanta. I'm too tired to sleep and too worked up to relax even a little. I've spent the last 15 days in Key West with my wife, just relaxing and spending time together.
It feels like my leave lasted a long time, then again it all feels like a blur, but especially the last few days. Starting around this past Friday my mind went into survival mode which made it more difficult to relax. I'm sure it's all some type of defense mechanism.
To be honest, saying goodbye to my wife and going to the airport for this was a lot harder than saying goodbye before leaving. Even though I'm now over halfway its harder since there is no longer the unknown to pull me forward.
While I am going back to Afghanistan and all that comes with it, I know that it's not what awaits me that is making it hard right now, but rather what I'm leaving behind.
